Saturday, November 30, 2013

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Emerson Tarji Johnston

6lbs., 12oz.
19 1/2 inches long
7:58 a.m. 

We are in love 

Thursday, November 21, 2013

The last day

C-section is scheduled for tomorrow at 7:30am. We have to arrive at the hospital at 5:30am. Tomorrow at this time we will have a baby. How weird is that? 

I'm anxious, but not excited... Just thinking of what needs to get done today.  Feeling overwhelmed. Sad about the end of a life that is just the two of us and keeping sane by rationalizing that God has picked out a special soul for us to raise. Trusting that God knows what we need and he's picked someone we will like. 

God has let me plan my delivery, which I know is a gift and rare. As much as one can plan, I have been able to. I know the day and time Emerson will arrive. I didn't have to go into labor. My BP is staying low enough that I haven't had to rush to the hospital. I do feel slightly guilty pulling her out before she says she's ready... But the doctor picked the day for both of our safety. 

I'm worried about breast feeding and getting enough milk stored before I have to go back to work. I don't know how the recovery will be with the surgery. Concerned about the 3 hour loop of feeding and sleeping. Hoping I can live in the moment and enjoy this time. And that Jake and I will be happy and more in love with our new life. 

Monday, November 18, 2013

38 weeks, 1 day

I can't copy and paste properly from Jake's laptop so an update without the format it will be.

Last week I was feeling off and went to test my blood pressure over lunch at the CVS.  It was high enough to call the doctor and they had me come in.  It's remained high and on Saturday I was officially put on bed rest.  I had my appointment today and we scheduled my c-section for Friday, November 22nd - so long as nothing happens before then. So, that's where we're at.  Emerson should arrive on Friday and I'm laying on my left side 23 hours a day.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

37weeks, 2 days

How far along: 37 weeks.

Size of the baby: Watermelon.19-22in, 6.5 lbs - Same as last week on my app; HOWEVER, we had an ultrasound this week and she is 6 lbs. 7oz.... so apparently the app is super accurate.

Total weight gain: I'm guessing somewhere around 10lbs total

Maternity clothes: I received my last Old Navy order and I'm really happy with it.  I have a few new sweaters and they're warm. I have some leggings and they are so comfy.  My boots arrived and when I put it all together, I look more trendy than sloppy so it's a win. 

Stretch marks: None yet but I had a dream last night that they showed up everywhere.

Sleep: I slept last night.  Not WELL, but I slept in solid 2 hour increments courtesy of  Benadryl. My hips hurt from laying on my sides, my ribs kind of fall asleep.. I have to go to the bathroom every few hours - and even after I go, I still feel like I need to - she must be putting some pressure on my bladder.

Best moment of this week: My mom came up this weekend and our nursery is done and organized.  It's nice to check that off the list.  I still need to pack my hospital bag but I have everything that I need for it I think. I had a shower at work which was great.  I really have the best work environment and people.  I don't think many people are HAPPY to be at work every day and my co-workers really make my job enjoyable.  They got me the best gift of funny onesies AND our carseat among other things. Really so very thoughtful and awesome of all of them.

Miss anything: Have I mentioned that I miss wine?  Or beer?!

Movement: Still happening. It's a lot tighter now, especially when I'm sitting at my desk at work.  I almost need to lay back for her to be able to kick properly because it kind of hurts.

Food cravings: Today I'd like to have shrimp. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope

Gender: Girl

Labor signs: Daily cramping.  Braxton-Hicks are almost constant. I've had a few "real" contractions but they never became steady or closer than 13 minutes apart.

Belly button in or out: I do believe it's going to stay in!

Wedding rings on or off: On.  

Happy or moody most of the time: I haven't been as crabby this week.  More grateful for my wonderful husband.  I'm happy I have someone that is interested in everything and that gets along well with me.  I'm happy we don't argue and enjoy spending our time together.

Looking forward to: Um, delivery will probably be on 11/27 if she doesn't come sooner.  I don't know if I'm looking forward to it or not... pretty sure I'll be a nervous wreck.  It's all so unknown.  I don't know what to expect.

Names: We have a name!  So long as nothing changes before DD, Emerson Tarji Johnston will be her name. 

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

36w, 2d

How far along: 36 weeks.

Size of the baby: Watermelon.19-22in, 6.5 lbs

Total weight gain: I'm guessing somewhere around 10lbs total

Maternity clothes: Last Old Navy order has been completed.  A few sweaters, a few pairs of leggings.  I also ordered some riding boots to complete the looks.  Going for the pulled together look that actually feels like pajamas.

Stretch marks: None yet

Sleep: I don't really sleep much.  I do try, and I get very tired, but it just doesn't happen that often.  It's not even that I'm horribly uncomfortable (I am) or the bathroom breaks (1-2 a night).  It's that my brain won't shut off.  I have so much to do and going on.  It's very overwhelming.  MONEY, Pediatricians, pre-registration at the hospital, still in the process of changing my name, MONEY, temporary disability paperwork, groceries, stuff still needed for baby, stuff needed for me after delivery, need to pack a bag for the hospital, MONEY,  when are the 12 online orders coming in,  DAYCARE... it goes on and on and on.  I really wish it wasn't my job to complete it. I feel like I have too much on my plate and way too much on my shoulders.

Best moment of this week: Um... lets see.  I'll have to get back to you on that.

Miss anything: At this point, I miss everything and I'm over this game.

Movement: Still happening.

Food cravings: I don't really care if I eat or not.  We did go to Zia's on Saturday with Amanda and Josh and it was amazing.  I love their food.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope

Gender: Girl

Labor signs: Daily cramping.  Braxton-Hicks are almost constant.

Belly button in or out: Its still all the way in.  I'm hoping it stays that way.

Wedding rings on or off: On.  

Happy or moody most of the time: Moody.  Very very moody.  I actually wake up angry.

Looking forward to: Um...

Names: Still undecided. Tick tock.

Friday, November 1, 2013


I think I've grown soft.  I'm not someone that buys midol.  I don't own a heating pad.  I get cramps when it's that time of the month but I don't normally complain. 

Today, I complain.  Yuck, these suck.  Like a reminder that soon the period will return and so will the cramps - monthly.

I'm pretty sure it's some classic false labor and just part of the process, but I do hope it's not like this for the next month.